Archive for January, 2018

Lies and More Lies

January 20, 2018

Now I find out that she’s spending the weekend with someone, but she won’t tell me who or where. She flatly denied seeing anyone when I asked, told me she would “let me know if there was anything”, but she didn’t, she hasn’t.

I told her that I just want her to be happy, that sleeping with someone else is the best and easiest way of drawing a line under a relationship… told her that I knew it was going to happen, so could she please be 100% up front with me and not leave me guessing – because that would be 100% fucking with my mental health.

She told me that my mental health wasn’t her responsibility.

So… my intuition is sharp as sunlight. I Knew something was going on, but she flatly denied it… then told me it was none of my business. I just can’t deal with this bullshit.

If the boot was on the other foot, I would make sure to tell her.

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Angst

January 19, 2018

Aw man. I just wish I could talk to someone. I wish I had some friends that hadn’t ended up on her side of the divide. I wish I knew where she was, what she was doing and who with.

I’m not jealous. I’m just so fucking lonely.

Too Much To Say

January 7, 2018

I started to transplant my daily Tarot diary onto here, then I realised it’s best not to. I gave a “no comment” interview at the time and, even though it’s difficult to attach this (anonymous) ‘blog to me IRL, I would be better off not putting anything anywhere that it might be found and used against me.

Just be patient. I’ll find out soon enough whether I’m going to court or not.