Posts Tagged ‘Beserk’

Yet Another Flip Out

October 15, 2014

Morning school run today: Had a slight knock in the car (wing mirrors, smashed mirror in mine, took his right off), the other guy was driving way too fast in a school zone, I refused to accept liability. The dude was crazy and aggressive, refused to give me his insurance details, tried to intimidate and scare me and my wife (he terrified our 6y/o son, my wife managed to get him away and into school); when she came back he told her to “shut up” and to “know her place” told me to “shut my woman up”. I told him she was her own person, we were equals, I didn’t boss her she didn’t boss me. So he threatened to stab her in the eye, to get his “backup” and come and “get revenge”, to kick my car in, to generally fuck me up. Kept my cool until he opened my car door and tried to get in. Flipped like a switch, but only put him on the floor. Didn’t hit him or use unnecessary force. Rage Demon protecting me, my wife and property. He got garden shears out of his trunk and threatened to stab us, I said I was calling the police and he quickly stashed them back in his car – but they turned up anyway, since all his shouting and threats had made bystanders call them. Manitained my calm, dealt with the police in a matter-of-fact way. Got guy’s insurance details. Left scene.

Darkness

October 5, 2014

This 6 week “challenge” thing that I mentioned is basically just the introduction to implementing a lifestyle based on training the body-mind-spirit complex. In other words, having the discipline to make it through the first month and a half *and* record the process in a journal is basically the entry requirement to a larger community that focusses on developing one’s Self into the best, highest, most fulfilled version you can; a personification and activation of Maslow’s Hierarchy of Human Needs

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Missing Time

October 4, 2014

This isn’t the first time this has happened. Not that it happens frequently, but it does occur regularly – sometimes in tight bunches tied to a particularly tumultuous period in my life. Thing is, despite “blacking out”, I don’t end up slurring and stumbling about, which makes it difficult for the people around me to tell that I’m no longer at home and that they’re talking to “the Other Guy”. Whatever you say to him, I will have no memory of it when I wake up the next day. One particular previous partner got so frustrated by this dissociative fugue that she complained this “Jack & Tyler schtick” was getting pretty old, pretty quick. (more…)

September 30, 2014

Overdrank at the weekend, have missing time. Came round just as I was putting some guy on the floor. Thank f**k I didn’t hit him. Normally I can’t afford to get that drunk, but there was a free bar. I shoulda made more use of the free buffet instead.

Now I need to write another Mea Culpa and beg forgiveness of the people we were staying with.